I don't care about that. I want to know. Why do you get to decide what I know in the first place?!
[Hakkai told him to make it as his new life, but there's something in him that just won't let this thing go. And he's not going to be so nice about it going forward.]
I didn't make that decision, Niles. If I could, I would have told you everything the moment I saw you here and realized what had happened. But I can't, and it's the more powerful gods who make that decision and the consequences.
[He thinks. It gives Niles someone else to blame, at least]
...if I answer prayers, will you still want to go with me? I know how to use you, and I frankly trust you more than I trust Saix. If you'd rather not, I...understand, and won't force you.
Are you listening to what you're saying? Asking me to do work with you because you trust me. When you're supposed to be doing something so I can trust you?
[He pauses for a moment, keeping his eye shut and rubbing his face.]
Until I have proof I can trust you... do it with him. I'm not about to be dragged along.
[He doesn't reply to that. How can he? He just sits quietly and keeps himself pressed against the door, waiting to hear the man go back to whatever he was doing before.]
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Date: 2016-08-25 04:21 am (UTC)[Hakkai told him to make it as his new life, but there's something in him that just won't let this thing go. And he's not going to be so nice about it going forward.]
...Fine. Do that then.
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Date: 2016-08-25 04:26 am (UTC)[He thinks. It gives Niles someone else to blame, at least]
...if I answer prayers, will you still want to go with me? I know how to use you, and I frankly trust you more than I trust Saix. If you'd rather not, I...understand, and won't force you.
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Date: 2016-08-25 04:48 am (UTC)[He pauses for a moment, keeping his eye shut and rubbing his face.]
Until I have proof I can trust you... do it with him. I'm not about to be dragged along.
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Date: 2016-08-25 04:50 am (UTC)[He pauses]
I will...leave you alone now. And...I am sorry for failing you thus far, Niles.
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Date: 2016-08-29 06:35 pm (UTC)