[ Ryoma's never been much of one for the theory of the Ideal Alpha and Omega--it seems a disservice, to leave partners so... separate from each other. Ryoma's father was always so kind to his mother, always asking her fond questions and spending long hours with her while their children played nearby.
It's his most secret hope that he'll be half the man his father was. He pulls back, face--gentle, he hopes, as he tries to smooth out the severity of his usual expression. He wants Niles to be honest with him. He wants Niles to be happy.
... he wants the undercurrent of fear to leave the air between them. It's driving him up the wall in the worst way imaginable--and there's no one to hold responsible for it but himself. ]
What's wrong? Please, you know you can speak to me about anything that troubles you.
[Niles knows gossip. He's listened to it to help Leo out, or for himself to survive. He knows how easy it flows and how quickly it gets used to spread false information, but also an incredible amount of true information.
So for him to bring it up, means he's taking this seriously.]
First, when I didn't get pregnant immediately, and how terrible of an omega I am to not be immediately pregnant with your child. And then when I got pregnant, it continued to that I wouldn't be a good parent.
[ Gossip is the worst, and Ryoma's immediately on edge at hearing that it's the root of the problem. He frowns and then smooths it away--it won't do for Niles to think Ryoma is upset with him, after all. He reaches out to take Niles' hands in his, listening to him intently.
Try as he might, he can't help the furrow in his brow, or the fire in his eye at the true cause of Niles' stress. ]
Yes, well. It takes two people to create a child, and considering most of the people with the loosest tongues in the court have a nanny or designated caretaker for their children, I wouldn't put all that much stock into the aspersions they cast on your predicted style of parenting.
[ Is that Ryoma being rude? He's being rude. He's being rude and pulling Niles to him, wrapping him in a hug. ]
You're going to be a wonderful father, Niles. Don't doubt that.
Mmm, and some people say that I'm the cruel one of us two.
[It does, however, make Niles feel better. As if he doesn't have anything to worry about. Normally, gossip doesn't bothered the omega. He's probably the one giving more gossip.
But being pregnant in a new environment seems to be a struggle for him. He takes a deep breath.]
The problem is that I haven't had a father... so I have no idea what I'm doing.
[ Now, an argument could be made that honesty was the sincerest form of cruelty, but Ryoma was going to neatly sidestep that and busy himself with kissing Niles' cheeks, hugging him close and rubbing at the small of his back. He moves to sit with his lover, trying to draw him close that he can try cover around him--he wants to be the big, strong Alpha protecting his mate from all the world's woes.
... even if the woes are coming from inside the Omega. ]
In all honesty? I worry about that too, and my father was an amazing man. I think... as long as we trust our instincts, and the true friends around us, our children will be fine. I can't see you trying to hurt our baby--not when you love them so much already.
Oh please, Ryoma. You don't get to use what I use.
[Then again, Niles admits he's cruel, so he's not too good at that. With a grin on his lips, he moves in and kisses him again. Hands curling around him with a light hum.]
I see... that, I appreciate. [With a light chuckle.] Whenever you say something like that... I can believe you.
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Date: 2018-11-22 05:20 am (UTC)It's his most secret hope that he'll be half the man his father was. He pulls back, face--gentle, he hopes, as he tries to smooth out the severity of his usual expression. He wants Niles to be honest with him. He wants Niles to be happy.
... he wants the undercurrent of fear to leave the air between them. It's driving him up the wall in the worst way imaginable--and there's no one to hold responsible for it but himself. ]
What's wrong? Please, you know you can speak to me about anything that troubles you.
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Date: 2018-11-26 07:04 pm (UTC)[Niles knows gossip. He's listened to it to help Leo out, or for himself to survive. He knows how easy it flows and how quickly it gets used to spread false information, but also an incredible amount of true information.
So for him to bring it up, means he's taking this seriously.]
First, when I didn't get pregnant immediately, and how terrible of an omega I am to not be immediately pregnant with your child. And then when I got pregnant, it continued to that I wouldn't be a good parent.
[He's... stressed. Very stressed.]
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Date: 2018-12-04 04:54 am (UTC)Try as he might, he can't help the furrow in his brow, or the fire in his eye at the true cause of Niles' stress. ]
Yes, well. It takes two people to create a child, and considering most of the people with the loosest tongues in the court have a nanny or designated caretaker for their children, I wouldn't put all that much stock into the aspersions they cast on your predicted style of parenting.
[ Is that Ryoma being rude? He's being rude. He's being rude and pulling Niles to him, wrapping him in a hug. ]
You're going to be a wonderful father, Niles. Don't doubt that.
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Date: 2018-12-07 10:11 pm (UTC)Mmm, and some people say that I'm the cruel one of us two.
[It does, however, make Niles feel better. As if he doesn't have anything to worry about. Normally, gossip doesn't bothered the omega. He's probably the one giving more gossip.
But being pregnant in a new environment seems to be a struggle for him. He takes a deep breath.]
The problem is that I haven't had a father... so I have no idea what I'm doing.
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Date: 2018-12-09 04:51 pm (UTC)[ Now, an argument could be made that honesty was the sincerest form of cruelty, but Ryoma was going to neatly sidestep that and busy himself with kissing Niles' cheeks, hugging him close and rubbing at the small of his back. He moves to sit with his lover, trying to draw him close that he can try cover around him--he wants to be the big, strong Alpha protecting his mate from all the world's woes.
... even if the woes are coming from inside the Omega. ]
In all honesty? I worry about that too, and my father was an amazing man. I think... as long as we trust our instincts, and the true friends around us, our children will be fine. I can't see you trying to hurt our baby--not when you love them so much already.
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Date: 2019-01-01 02:30 am (UTC)[Then again, Niles admits he's cruel, so he's not too good at that. With a grin on his lips, he moves in and kisses him again. Hands curling around him with a light hum.]
I see... that, I appreciate. [With a light chuckle.] Whenever you say something like that... I can believe you.