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From:

deniles

...It's not that I don't think you wouldn't be with me if you suspected something was off.

[He just looks at Subaki. Now that he's forced to, at least.]

...My reputation is something I've never had to care about, and never would care about. However, it's because of this that I am able to protect my lord's reputation.

[He moves to touch Subaki's hand and hold it in his own.]

...And I feel very much the same towards you.

From:

congracia

[Subaki squeezes Niles' hand.]

You know that my reputation is... a lot to me. Mine is. I don't care about yours. I don't want to care about yours. You...

[Niles just opened up to him. Surely Subaki can do his best to return the favor.]

I envy that about you.

From:

deniles

...You know, to anyone else that sounds terrible, right?

[Niles sighs gently.]

But, I'm used to that.

From:

congracia

[Subaki just smiles. Getting it out in the open had made this conversation much easier - on hos end, anyway.]

Things sounding terrible? Yes, I'm very well aware.

Edited Date: 2017-08-18 03:35 am (UTC)

From:

deniles

Not as terrible as your face, at least.

[But it's mostly teasing.]

If you came here to blame me for getting upset at your sisters words, however, I can't say you'll really make me want to stay.

From:

congracia

As far as either of us knew, it was a discussion in confidence. [And you shouldn't have been eavesdropping, is what he really wants to say, but then they're going in circles.]

Do you really think so little of me that I'd chase you down just to be sure and make it worse?

Edited Date: 2017-08-25 04:47 pm (UTC)

From:

deniles

That doesn't excuse it.

[And you're really not convincing him.]

And you'd never tell me?

From:

congracia

Tell you something told to me in confidence? No. Tell you something that isn't true anymore? Also no.

If I'd overheard it... I don't know. Isn't this exactly why they say ignorance is bliss? I wouldn't want to hurt you.

From:

deniles

Ignorance is death.

[He looks towards Subaki, making sure he saw his eyepatch carefully.]

Besides. What was I supposed to do? I had already heard enough to want to leave. Did you want me to go before now?

From:

congracia

If I wanted you to go at any point, why would I have come all the way out here? You should know by now, I wouldn't waste the effort to rub it in.

[More importantly, why would he have risked his reputation? Not for the first time, he's starting to wonder if Niles is being obtuse on purpose.]

From:

deniles

You're doing a good enough job rubbing it in already.

[He's being a little obtuse but he's also annoyed.]

Feels like you're defending yourself first.

From:

congracia

If I am, I shouldn't have to defend myself from anything that happens during a private conversation with my sister. Maybe self-defense would have been not caring enough in the first place to try and stop you.

From:

deniles

So then who's fault is it? Mine for listening in when I was trying to surprise you? Your sisters for saying such things about me? Or you for not stopping them before they could go so far?

From:

congracia

Would you rather she said it in a letter? She would have, eventually, if she didn't have the opportunity today.

[He tilts his head back, thinking. The stars really are lovely, and it's enough to calm him down. A little.]

I don't know. I don't think it's anyone's fault.

From:

deniles

I would rather you have stopped her from saying it at all.

[However, he just sighs.]

That's not what I'm hearing. You're clearly blaming me for listening in at all.

From:

congracia

[He didn't know he had this much patience, instead of getting up sooner. He wants to choose his next words carefully, but he's not a mind reader.]

If that's what you want to hear, then that's what you're going to hear.

[He sighs. The longer this conversation goes, the more he hates it.]

Hoshido isn't Nohr. Maybe that's all it is, in the end. You said I was always there for you. What's defending you, if not that?

From:

deniles

...Exactly what am I supposed to hear from 'you shouldn't have been listening in'?

[He hates it more and more.]

No, it's not. Perhaps I'm just more used to shutting people down who start saying negative things about people I care about. Maybe next time I should just do what you did.

From:

congracia

Maybe you should, because we talked about it and she came around.

[Gods.]

From:

deniles

Good for her.

[He's clearly bitter about this still.]

That changes almost nothing.

From:

congracia

It's my sister, not a random courtier. If it were, that conversation wouldn't be happening in the first place. It's different.

From:

deniles

...Nothing I'm saying to you is getting to you.

[He moves to stand up.]

Enjoy your sisters then.

From:

congracia

I will. Fujie put the flowers up nicely instead of dropping them in front of my door. It'll be easy to pretend they were from her.

From:

deniles

Then congratulations. Your reputation and your sisters have proven to be more important than how I felt. You must truly be satisfied, mister perfection.

[He narrows his gaze as the carriage comes.]