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[congracia]

[But not the first time hearing each other is on the tip of his tongue. The way Niles is acting, he'd definitely heard something. The only question was just how much. He hums.]

We've both been busy. I was just looking for you, and I was told you'd be here.

[No points for guessing who spilled the beans.]

[deniles]

[He knows. But he doesn't seem to care.]

I'm surprised you stopped by. I'd have thought you'd rather watch out for your reputation.

[And that's the clue of how much he listened to.]

[congracia]

[Damn it, Niles. Even though it's relatively private, he still doesn't want to have this conversation where anybody could come up to them. Suggesting they move, however, would be the absolute wrong thing to say. In the corner of his eye, the flower stills in Niles' hand.]

I'd have thought you'd be above eavesdropping. Evidently, we're both wrong.

[deniles]

That's my job, Subaki. I eavesdrop. It's for the sake of Leo.

[He doesn't care anymore. Frankly, he's tired of dealing with all this bullshit.]

If something happens that I could have overheard, I'd never let myself forget it.

[And he's not apologizing.]

[congracia]

[Niles is the last person who should be complaining about bullshit. Talk about zero self-awareness.]

Do you normally leave flowers as a calling card? Krakenburg Castle must be very lovely.

[He's so tired of this.]

Your job is to eavesdrop on people who you don't trust, who may be a threat. Were Fujie and Airi really that dangerous?

[Was he?]

[deniles]

Maybe they were.

[He's willing to go all the way with this, if he has to.]

Might have been a trap for you. Hard to say. There had to have been a reason I shouldn't come near, right?

[congracia]

[He's not having this conversation through double meanings.]

Niles, what are you talking about?

[deniles]

You know exactly what I'm talking about, Subaki.

[He'll be direct about it if he wants. Subaki isn't going to like it.]

Those gossiping girls talked enough for me to know what people think of me in Hoshido. I'm returning to Nohr permanently.

[congracia]

My sisters are hardly indicative of what people think. Besides, since when did you care about that?

[He could say things about Niles being a coward, but he'll hold off. For now.]

[deniles]

I care when people think I'm going to rape someone.

[He immediately looks a different direction. He's still upset about that and he's unwilling to even look at anyone when that word comes out of his mouth.]

[congracia]

[He's about to defend Fujie - and remind Niles that it had nothing to do with Leo and he shouldn't have been eavesdropping in the first place. He notices Niles' looking away and it dies on his tongue.]

Were you not listening? That was ridiculous, and I told her as much.

[deniles]

That doesn't matter.

[He grips his knees hard, his knuckles turning white.]

...For about a year or two when I was a teenager, a man took me in. Fed me, kept me clothed... and that period of my life was filled with him raping me over and over again.

[He shuts his eye.]

Even one person thinking I'd do it brings back awful memories... because I could never make anyone experience that act.

[congracia]

[What do you say to that?]

...I see. I'm sorry to hear that.

[After a few seconds, he takes Niles' chin in hand and makes him look at him. He doesn't know if this will help at all, but he's not saying it to the side of his head.]

Niles, if I thought for even a fraction of a second that you would have done that, I wouldn't be with you. I definitely wouldn't have run across the castle grounds to try to find you.

[deniles]

...It's not that I don't think you wouldn't be with me if you suspected something was off.

[He just looks at Subaki. Now that he's forced to, at least.]

...My reputation is something I've never had to care about, and never would care about. However, it's because of this that I am able to protect my lord's reputation.

[He moves to touch Subaki's hand and hold it in his own.]

...And I feel very much the same towards you.

[congracia]

[Subaki squeezes Niles' hand.]

You know that my reputation is... a lot to me. Mine is. I don't care about yours. I don't want to care about yours. You...

[Niles just opened up to him. Surely Subaki can do his best to return the favor.]

I envy that about you.

[deniles]

...You know, to anyone else that sounds terrible, right?

[Niles sighs gently.]

But, I'm used to that.

[congracia]

[Subaki just smiles. Getting it out in the open had made this conversation much easier - on hos end, anyway.]

Things sounding terrible? Yes, I'm very well aware.

[deniles]

Not as terrible as your face, at least.

[But it's mostly teasing.]

If you came here to blame me for getting upset at your sisters words, however, I can't say you'll really make me want to stay.

[congracia]

As far as either of us knew, it was a discussion in confidence. [And you shouldn't have been eavesdropping, is what he really wants to say, but then they're going in circles.]

Do you really think so little of me that I'd chase you down just to be sure and make it worse?

[deniles]

That doesn't excuse it.

[And you're really not convincing him.]

And you'd never tell me?

[congracia]

Tell you something told to me in confidence? No. Tell you something that isn't true anymore? Also no.

If I'd overheard it... I don't know. Isn't this exactly why they say ignorance is bliss? I wouldn't want to hurt you.

[deniles]

Ignorance is death.

[He looks towards Subaki, making sure he saw his eyepatch carefully.]

Besides. What was I supposed to do? I had already heard enough to want to leave. Did you want me to go before now?

[congracia]

If I wanted you to go at any point, why would I have come all the way out here? You should know by now, I wouldn't waste the effort to rub it in.

[More importantly, why would he have risked his reputation? Not for the first time, he's starting to wonder if Niles is being obtuse on purpose.]

[deniles]

You're doing a good enough job rubbing it in already.

[He's being a little obtuse but he's also annoyed.]

Feels like you're defending yourself first.

[congracia]

If I am, I shouldn't have to defend myself from anything that happens during a private conversation with my sister. Maybe self-defense would have been not caring enough in the first place to try and stop you.